honesly do you even know what love is?

you got mad at me for saying i love you to my close friends.... yea so thats a different kind of love! when i started saying i loved you i meant it u fuck face ass holed retard.

dont fucking say you love me and then up and say i fucking love this other girl just because she is different.....

well gah you need to start figuring things out and stop hurting people i have to stop doing things because ik youll be there or someone will be talking about you or some thing you said come to my head everytime i go.

you ruined me ok u fucking ripped everything i had and threw it on the floor

ugh i need to party with some friends..... and school needs to be over!

ok so i dont think people should be judging the way i act right now i mean come on i just got out of a long relationship that i gave my all too....

so yes i am going to say stupid things for a status on facebook...... im lonely ok and i do stupid things when im left alone for too long..... and so what i want someones attention i need people to talk to and have conversations with. im such a needy shy veggie that no one will ever want...
o and dont call me bipolar unless you know me seriously cuz im not! i will say im pretty sure i have depression again tho but what ever ill fix that too like i fix everything else about me for people WTF. its stupid!
im too strong minded sometimes that people freak out. i shouldnt care and i should be used to it but really come the fuck on. you just piss me off.

i really am going to be a cat lady that is an alcoholic whatever idc at this point as long as i dont have to think about things that i shouldnt.

men are seriously all the same tho they say they arent in the begining but then you get to know them more and you know they are still a fuck face.... just what the hell

im effing pissed i cant handle my life and school at the same god damn time.... too much dick and no where to put it. is pretty much RIT

so ok so all men suck!!!!!!!!!!

im so sick of being used just because i am a girl doesnt an that you can do anything that you want to me i fucking have feelings.!

dont use me because you want sex! dont use me because you like me and i dont know what i want to do with my fucking life besides just wanting to live

you are so fucking lucky that i havent even thought about starting to cut again....... but then again i have started to drink not that i give a fuck ^^

i just cant handle being toyed with.

~tom: i love you and i still know i do i cant wait for you forever its hard for me to be alone now that i have dated you and fell in love with you... you are my drug that i cant resist. mostly that you make me happy in every way and being so far away kills my heart. ik that you want to get back together some day but when is that going to be?? i need to know so that i have some hope and a reason to live. i miss you and emma so very fucking much

~jared: you say that you dont want to get hurt and i dont want to do that to you i really dont i just wanted to know how i felt about you but you know what ik how i feel now.... you were different or so you say... so i didnt know and the fact that i just got out of a long relationship you should have just backed off. i need a friend right now more then fucking anything!!!!!!!!

~steve: i havent talked to you since really before i started dating tom and now that i am single you think that you can do everything under the damn sun. just gah for the fact that i almost let you im just a fucking weak person

~koda: thanks for making me feel like a damn slut.

JUST BLA FUCK MY LIFE!

i just hate my life......

first off why does love hurt so fucking much??? why am i not good enough for anyone? am i going to live the rest of my life alone?

so here is wha happened.....

tom has been acting so weird but i ignored it cuz he does that sometimes when hes stressed. but saturday he said that he might need a break from us cuz our spark is dimming and that he didnt know how to get it back.... but then things get better.... but then tuesday he told me that he thinks hes starting to like another girl but he didnt know wha he wanted and things just kept getting worse...... and today kitty called him to see what was going on since that is just how kitty is.... and he told her that he needs his space and i understand that i just wish he would have told me and i wouldnt have to worry so much.... but then tonight i saw that he was on facebook and i desided to see wha he was doing since i was the one that made his i can get on and he was talking to his friend about that stupid girl....

we all think that he just has a little crush on her cuz he can relate to her cuz of her family situation is like his and all that shit..... but still he told his friend no oone has mad him laugh for 4 years and shit and......

i just dont know what to do and i dont want to lose him i hate feeling like this i hate my life..... and he also said to his friend that he is never going to be happy.... but he always said that i made him happy and that i was always going to cuz he loves me so much.....

FML for never going to be good enough for anyone and feeling this way


well guess what THOMAS SCHWAHN I LOVE YOU TOO FUCKING MUCH TO BE LIKE THIS

I JUST WANNA DIE!!

JUST DONT LEAD ME ON IF YOU DONT WANT TO BE WITH ME ANY MORE

FML FML FML FML FML FML FML FML FML FML FML FML FML FML FML FML FML FML

FLM okay just FML

RIT sucks on the fact that i get no inspiration and the fact that no one will crit and help me out like it was at athena FML. theres no helping out saying that looks like shit and you need to fix this or that or try this and see.....

NO none of that only the fuck ass teachers that completely take over and say okay now keep messing with that and shit. WTF

this is shit and i hate every min that i have to deal with these fuck asses that act like they know everything and think that there the shit


well you know what JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP! I know im complaining and shit but im just sick of it..... i just want to get out of here and go home.

whatever im just going to sit here for the hour or so that is left of this retarded kiddy photoshop class and do nothing