i just hate my life......

first off why does love hurt so fucking much??? why am i not good enough for anyone? am i going to live the rest of my life alone?

so here is wha happened.....

tom has been acting so weird but i ignored it cuz he does that sometimes when hes stressed. but saturday he said that he might need a break from us cuz our spark is dimming and that he didnt know how to get it back.... but then things get better.... but then tuesday he told me that he thinks hes starting to like another girl but he didnt know wha he wanted and things just kept getting worse...... and today kitty called him to see what was going on since that is just how kitty is.... and he told her that he needs his space and i understand that i just wish he would have told me and i wouldnt have to worry so much.... but then tonight i saw that he was on facebook and i desided to see wha he was doing since i was the one that made his i can get on and he was talking to his friend about that stupid girl....

we all think that he just has a little crush on her cuz he can relate to her cuz of her family situation is like his and all that shit..... but still he told his friend no oone has mad him laugh for 4 years and shit and......

i just dont know what to do and i dont want to lose him i hate feeling like this i hate my life..... and he also said to his friend that he is never going to be happy.... but he always said that i made him happy and that i was always going to cuz he loves me so much.....

FML for never going to be good enough for anyone and feeling this way


well guess what THOMAS SCHWAHN I LOVE YOU TOO FUCKING MUCH TO BE LIKE THIS

I JUST WANNA DIE!!

JUST DONT LEAD ME ON IF YOU DONT WANT TO BE WITH ME ANY MORE

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